Promise yourself

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can 

disturb your peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to 

every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel like there is 

something in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make your 

optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best, 

and expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others 

as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on the 

greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give 

every living person you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself 

that you have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, and too 

strong for fear, and to happy to permit the 

presence of trouble.

My journey

It’s a nice day and special

The day when I learn everything in my life

The day when the rainbow began to appear

The day when the sun began to rise

And the day when I like a moon

Everything starts in this date 

Think about memories when I was a child

Mom helped me to blow the candles

Mom helped me to cut my cake

Everyone would give me a kiss on my cheek

Clapping non stop

I still remember all of this in my head

Let’s count the candles now

Sixteen candles on my cake

Blowing each of them with a hope

With love, with smile and with a joy

And hoping that

All the love that I’ve shown to others,

Would be return to me

Thanks god,

For giving me another year, another chance

Thanks mom,

For raising me

Thanks daddy,

For be the one I really need

Thanks to my family member,

For giving me such support

And thanks friends, 

For always by my side

Well thanks to everyone

By Aini Azhar

Miserable

I can’t cope with what life brings me

I feel so miserable today

Devastated

Yet frustrating

How do I wear a smile

When I see you walked away so fast

Without even saying goodbye

Without even hold my hand

I don’t know what I’m suppose to do

Crying over something so meaningless

My heart aching

I feel so blue

Whatever's left now

I still gonna say thank you

Thank you for the smile

Thank you for the joy you bring

Thank you for everything

Even if you’re not here with me

You're always alive inside of me

By Aini Azhar

Morning, lovely

Every morning

the world

is created. 

Under the orange

sticks of the sun

the heaped

ashes of the night

turn into leaves again

and fasten themselves to the high branches ---

and the ponds appear

like black cloth

on which are painted islands

of summer lilies. 

If it is your nature

to be happy

you will swim away along the soft trails

for hours, your imagination

alighting everywhere. 

And if your spirit

carries within it

the thorn

that is heavier than lead ---

if it's all you can do

to keep on trudging ---

there is still

somewhere deep within you

a beast shouting that the earth

is exactly what it wanted ---

each pond with its blazing lilies

is a prayer heard and answered

lavishly, 

every morning,

whether or not

you have ever dared to be happy, 

whether or not

you have ever dared to pray

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Sunflower sit lifeless in the balcony

Shriveled from the hotness

The light on it has go dim

Remain speechless forever

My morning now was broken

Everything was devastated

It’s like the world has come to an end

Lost everything I had

Now that’s left are memories

A thousand memories and picture in a frame

Remembering the sound of laughter

Picturing a smiley face

I hate this kind of situation

I had a shower of pure joy before

Now, it all flew like the wind carry the air

This feeling has never be gone

By Aini Azhar

24/6/2011

I’ve lost the moon

Looked up the sky at night

Counting the stars one by one

 matched each one with one another

I didn’t realize that I’ve lost something

Do you know, what I’ve lost?

Something is missing through something nice

I still looked up the sky with a reason

Finding and still finding

I've thought much about it now

No clue and no clue at all

I only can find it by my own

It really way up in the sky

It’s time for me to get this back

No matter how difficult it could be

I’ve missed it for a long time

I really felt the lost of it now

Dear moon, where did you gone?

By Aini Azhar  

23/6/2011

P/s : My inspiration from quote ‘i lost the moon while counting the stars ‘ I just made a poem about it. Not so good. I’ll improve my writing :)

In Loving Stride

My presence came with joyful pain

And sickened her mornings

And for nine months or so

She would deal with it

But in loving stride she took it all

As I formed and grew 

I changed her figure 

And weakened her joints 

And hampered her movement

But in loving stride she took it all

For nine months or so, 

I changed the manner of her lifestyle 

Inside of her, I lived in warmth

I turned and kicked, and even played

But in loving stride she took it all

God’s loving hand was there to help

My tender being was so pampered 

With care and protection so needed 

I was fed and nourished well indeed

And in loving stride she took it all

And when the day finally came

Her water broke, but she was strong,

Screamed in pain, but she was strong,

Until I came out breathing and crying 

And in Loving stride she took it all.

And as I grew, she was there for me

As I learned this life, to walk and talk

And she was there, as I went to school

From childhood, puberty, and even more

And in loving stride MOTHER took it all.

Confused

Hungry for something you can't have

ignoring the tell-tale cries of the wind.

Heart beating at maddening pace

searching for already there answers.

No one can feel what you are

inside of that paralyzed smile.

Each step leads you deeper in

To see the cracks cannot be filled

Will you, baby?

This is my first poem. I write it for myself :'))

When I put my headphones on and there you are

I had a dream last night and there you are

I opened my album in my phone and there you are

I checked my inbox message and there you are

My baby

Everything I did

You are always there

I don’t know why 

I think, I miss you baby

I'd never thought I'd miss someone so badly that it hurts.

I’ve dream about you last night

I wanna laugh at myself

I need some serious help

From you maybe, right baby?

I’d tried to forget you

Through songs and everything I did

But The more I tried to forget you,

 The more I miss you

Baby, did you hear me now?

I have myself to blame now 

I wish, I’d spent more time with you  while you were still in sight

Each tear I shed now

I don’t know whether it will bring you back or not

Baby, will you come back?

Baby,

What about yesterday and today?

Do you still love me?

Will you still kiss me?

Will you still making joke on me?

Will you still staring at me?

Do I still have a place in your heart?

I miss you so much

My dear, baby…

By Aini Azhar
18/6/2011

Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

Fact

"So many times it seemed like there were chances to stop things before they started. Or even stop them in midstream. But it was even worse when you knew at that very moment that there was still time to save yourself, and yet you couldn't even budge."

"What should I do about the wild and the tame? The wild heart that wants to be free, and the tame heart that wants to come home. I want to be held. I don’t want you to come too close. I want you to scoop me up and bring me home at nights. I don’t want to tell you where I am. I want to keep a place among the rocks where no one can find me. I want to be with you."

"Once in a while I get tired of this lifestyle. Running around with barely any time to think. Once in a while I just want to call you up, just have a day of fun. Once in while I start to dial your number, but then I remember that it's not my place."

"Slow down and enjoy life. It’s not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why."

- Eddie Cantor

I love being me

"I hope you always find someone to take you home. To put you into bed, kiss your cheek, and check your pulse... make sure you're still breathing with their hand up to your nose. I wish that could be me, but it's just not possible."

"Here in these deep city lights a girl could get lost tonight. And I'm finding every reason to be gone, there's nothing here to hold on to. Could I hold you?"

"Well I can see you on the horizon like a storm that's soon to be and is it so bad to be in love with a memory of you smiling back at me?"

"Everything that I do reminds me of you. And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor. And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do. When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now?"

"Okay, I like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and save the serious stuff for later."

"No one can hurt me anymore. In fact, no one can even come close because I just don't care anymore. About anything. I wake up and don't care what I wear. I don't care what I do on the weekends. I just go through the motions. So I sure as hell don't care what you do with your life anymore."

Confession

"You want everything to stay the same until you're ready for it to change. But you can't do that. You can't expect the whole world to stand still until you're ready."

"I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world. I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home. Yeah I'll miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone. But there is really nothing, nothing we can do. Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew."

"I’m thinking that sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren’t ever what you hoped they’d be. Not ever. For anybody. The only thing that separates one kind of person from another is that there are some who stay angry about it and there are some who accept what comes their way."

"Now I'm driving around, yeah, to get lost, just to find myself at any cost. If I hit the brakes, my heart will stop. I'm taking comfort in the dark. I keep saying I know you're not mine, but I'm praying that you'll be alright, because it's hard to let go of the ones you love. And I keep hoping for the best as this wound heals in my chest. I know one day my best will be enough."

"Today's the day I pray that we make it through. Make it through the fall, make it through it all. And I don't wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and stare at you. I don't wanna talk about it, and I don't wanna conversation, I just wanna cry in front of you. I don't wanna talk about it, cause I'm in love with you. You're the only one I'd be with til the end. When I come undone, you bring me back again. Back under the stars, back into your arms."

Crash

"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."

- Christopher McCandless-

“There’s a point in your life when you know who stays forever, and who’s just around for a while. People change, but so do you. Sometimes for the best, and sometimes for the worst. Bad things happen to everyone, you’re not in it alone. People lie, and some people just don’t care how you feel. Your heart beats, no matter how much pain you’re in. Everything will be okay eventually. There are always people in your life that just make your day, no matter the miles. I know about distance, I’ve been dealing with it all my life, don’t tell me it’s easy, because it’s not. But it’s worth it. I’d rather keep in touch with the people I love, than just drop it and forget about it. You don’t forget the ones you love. It doesn’t work like that. Give it all you’ve got and live your life to the fullest. People would kill to be you, have what you have, someone always has it worse off than you, but that doesn’t mean that your pain doesn’t count.” 

“We’re all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what’s coming. It’s pointless in the end, because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are.”

- Grey’s Anatomy 

I'm Blessed

I've been in darkness for so long just waiting for the light,

And now that you have come my way, my days don't seem like nights

I'm glad I'm finally overcome my fear of the other side,

Thank you for showing me the way, by taking me on this ride

I've never really felt this way about a guy before,

You've truly touched me deep inside, you've opened, unlocked, the door

I know it's nothing serious, but surely it's a start,

You've treated me so equally, I feel it in my heart

And even if this does not work, I'm glad I've had this chance,

To see how great you truly are, even just for a glance

We never know what'll come of this, it really just depends,

I'm glad we're taking the first step, we're becoming better friends

With you I never have to guess just how you really feel,

You talk to me about the facts and tell me what's the deal

With you I feel so comfortable, like nothing can go wrong,

I get this tingly feeling inside, you sing to me like a song

I'm trying to live in the moment, by forgetting about the past,

And so far it's been working, and it's really been a blast

My dear... Mommy

Hello Operator, does Heaven have a phone number? Mommy went to Heaven, but I need her here today, My tummy hurts and I fell down, I need her right away, Operator can you tell me how to find her in this book. Is heaven in the yellow part, I don't know where to look. I think my daddy needs her too, at night I hear him cry. I hear him call her name sometimes, but I really don't know why. Maybe if I call her, she will hurry home to me. Is Heaven very far away, is it across the sea? She's been gone a long, long time she needs to come home now! I really need to reach her, but I simply don't know how. Help me find the number please, is it listed under "Heaven"? I can't read these big big words, I am only seven. I'm sorry operator, I didn't mean to make you cry, Is your tummy hurting too, or is there something in your eye? If I call my church maybe they will know Mommy said when we need help that's where we should go. I found the number to my church tacked up on the wall. Thank you operator, I'll give them a call

Please come home

Please come home,

I miss you so.

More then you could,

Possibly know.

Things have changed,

Since you've been gone.

No one to talk to 

And no shoulder to cry on.

Our family and your friends

We all cried so much.

We miss you and your laugh

You're voice and soft touch.

I miss you and your smile.

I could add to this list,

Of everything I miss,

But there's no end, it doesn't exist.

I wish I could see you,

Just one last chance,

To see you smile,

Even if its just a glance.

I wish I could tell you

How much you meant to me

Just one last time,

Before you were set free.

I’ll never be the same

Without you in my life.

The emptiness in my eyes

Contains so much pain and strife.

Everyone has been smiling and laughing

We tries to forget,

What happened that day.

He drinks and smokes cigarettes.

It doesn't work though,

We just can't forget you.

We misses you so much,

And I do too.

I’m so sad

I can't cope with the pain.

A place in my heart,

Is where you'll always remain.

I,

Still remains silent.

I lost my other half,

And seems so angry and violent

As for me, you're my idol

I just don't understand.

Why did you have to leave

Is it what God planned?

You have a place in my heart

I love you now, I love you still

I always have

And always will

I admire your strength

I admire your smile

I admire how you made

So many lives worthwhile.

The last breath you took,

You had a smile on your face.

And with that, I thank God

You're in a better place.

Pieces of A Dream

I thought I saw you late last night

But it was just a flash of light

An angel passing

But I remember yesterday

Life before you went away

And we were laughing

We had hope and now it's broken

And I could see it clearly once

When you were here with me

And now somehow all that's left are

Pieces of a dream

And now I'm lost in restless nights

Just a whisper of the life

That we created

Shadows falling

I am calling

The faded photographs

The frames of broken glass

The shattered memories

Time will soon erase

All these souvenirs

It's all from a thousand tears

But when I wake up you are never there

We had hope and now it's broken

Would you love me?

Would you love me when I'm old, my dear,

Say, when I turn sixty-nine?

When my hearing's become rather unclear,

And I've to shout to you all the time?

Would you love me when my sight's gone bad,

And I leave my glasses around?

When I don't look as good as I once had,

And I've gained some extra pounds?

Would you love me still when my smooth hands

have become rough and bony?

When I've lost my shape of an hourglass,

And have stretch marks on my tummy?

When all of my teeth have fallen off,

And I've wrinkles 'round my mouth,

Will I still be the one you love,

Though my breasts are heading south?

Would you love me when my bottom droops, 

And I've a pair of flabby wings?

When I start to smell like cabbage soup,

Would you try to change a thing?

When my black hair's turned silver and gray,

And my veins look like a map,

Would you mind if I push you away,

Just to take another nap?

'Cause I'd love you still, no matter how

You'll look like when you're old,

I'll love you then as I do now,

For I love your heart of gold

P/s: Credit to Pia Zahari 

Thank you

If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.

when mountains crumble to the sea, there would still be you and me.

Kind woman, I give you my all, Kind woman, nothing more.

Little drops of rain whisper of the pain, tears of loves lost in the days gone by.

Our love is strong, with you there is no wrong,

together we shall go until we die. My, my, my.

Inspiration's what you are to me, inspiration, look.. see.

And so today, my world it smiles, your hand in mine, we walk the miles,

Thanks to you it will be done, for you to me are the only one.

Happiness, no more be sad, happiness....I'm glad.

If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.

If the mountains should crumble to the sea, there would still be you and me.

My Daddy

When I was just a tiny kid,
Do you remember when,
The time you kissed my bruises,
Or cleaned by soiled chin?

You scrambled for the balls I hit,
(Short-winded more than not,)
Yet, every time we'd play a game,
You praised the "outs" I caught.

It seems like only yesterday,
You wiped away my tears,
And late at night I called your name,
To chase away my fears.

Though time has changed your handsome grip,
Your hair is snowy white,
You gait's a little slower now,
Thick glasses help your sight.

Oh, do I thirst for years gone by,
To be that growing lad,
Re-living all of the memories,
Of growing with my dad.

P/s: Happy Father's Day to all daddies in my family and around the world! :)

My first post

This is my first post.

I love reading poems/poetry/stories/quotes whatsoever. It touch my inner feelings so much that I can’t even explain to everyone. I have a few collection of poetry. Not mine actually. So since I love collecting it, I always asked myself why I don’t start one. Frankly, I didn’t have the time plus I’m not good in writing actually. Require loads of reading

Okay I think, this is sufficient for my first entry. Anyway, thanks for reading

Catch you guys later xx

Sincerely,

aini