I forgive you

I am angry with you because everytime I wanted to leave, you had all the right things to say to make me stay.

I forgive you.

I forgive you for not being the man that I wanted you to be.

I forgive you, because I fell in love with you when I wasn't ready.

I forgive you for calling me selfish, when it was you that was being selfish.

I forgive you for waiting until it was over to do the simplest of things that I had wanted for so long.

I forgive you for being just another player.

I forgive you for shutting me out of your life, because I know, if you hadn't, I wouldn't be able to move on.

I forgive you, But I will Never forget you!!

I forgive you and I am moving on. My pain ends tonight

Apology

How do I tell you I'm sorry -

With a gesture, a look, a touch?

How is it I never realized

I hurt you so very much?

I do not ask forgiveness,

A comfort I'll never deserve.

I merely want to let you know,

But I cannot find the nerve.

To finally confront you, face-to-face,

To look you in the eye,

To face your wrath, your apathy -

Too terrified to try.

You called me selfish, I turned away,

I festered and I fled;

Cutting and wounding and lashing out,

Just to see if you bled.

Betraying and deceiving you,

I surely had no right

To snatch away such a precious gem;

A dark thief in the night.

3 months and forever passed

To bring us to this day,

When I present these simple words

I never thought to say.

The time has come, it's long past due,

To put aside my fear;

Would this confession torture you,

Or have you longed to hear?

To hear those forbidden words,

To vanquish all the pain,

To understand my dearest wish:

To know you once again.

The months aged me remarkably,

Though they have not made me wise;

I do know I erred irrevocably -

For that I apologize

Little Letter

As tears well up in my eyes and fall, they give me courage.

My sigh floats away into the orange late afternoon sky.

I know I'm too timid, but please don't get tired of me just yet.

My heart is burning, wanting so much to say how much I love you.

For I so want to be by your side,

No matter how hard, I will try.

I see the flickering sunlight through the treetops.

I wish I could send this little letter to you.

Your smile when you see the beauty of your hometown

Is like a perplexing puzzle that sends my heart pounding.

It's like you're opening up a door to an everlasting dream.

Who is it you're seeing, deep down in those gentle eyes of yours?

How I'd love to hear your voice.

If I call your name softly,

Could you whisper back,

and fill the days with our story?

For I so want to be by your side,

No matter how hard it will be, I will try.

I see the flickering sunlight through the treetops.

I wish I could send this little letter to you.

How I'd love to hear your voice.

If I call your name softly,

Could you whisper back,

and fill the days with our story?

My love left on a saturday

My belt loosens slowly.

Reminders of you stay fresh

in murky ponds of suffocating tadpoles.

Wake me in the morning,

when the sun shines again.

It's frightening when all I know

falls apart.

And all I know is you.

Hunger squeezes me tighter.

My soul sags with exhaustion.

Ashtrays fill with sleepless nights.

Weeping intensifies my anxiety.

Can tomorrow come without you...

here today?

The cheap chandelier falls on my face.

The rose filled lamp explodes in my hands.

Pain is unrecognizable.

All I knew was you.

You.

My love

Remembrance

She remembers it all,

All the people who had said

They cared, but did they really?

She remembers it all,

The sound of laughter and

How happy she'd been, but was she really?

She remembers it all,

His arms around her and

He said "I love you," but did he really?

She remembers it all,

The pain she'd felt when he left,

How her heart ached, but was it really?

She remembers it all,

The feeling of being so alone,

The feeling no one cared, but did they really?

But now they'll remember her,

Staring at the knife in her hand

How easy to slit her wrists, but will she really? 

Something

And so it came to be

this isolation that I am

I can only look to me

to find the way it all began -

this confusion, constant

hunger for something more than this

I strive to find this being

that I envision, yet seem to miss.

Could it be that I am empty-

or maybe a little lost?

Could it be that I am lonely,

or seek happiness at any cost?

This never-ending Something

that I am living deep inside,

depicts the illusion of myself

and all I have to hide.

Only you

A person can make you feel high,

A person can make you feel low.

But only you can decide,

Which way you want to go.

A person can hurt you mentally,

A person can hurt you physically.

But only you can place,

A limit on your abilities.

A person can cause drama,

A person can cause a situation.

But only you can create,

Your own reputation.

A person can make you laugh,

A person can make you cry.

But only you can make,

Decisions for your life.

I guess what I'm trying to say,

That when you're living day to day.

Don't live by what people do,

But live by what you know is true

You complete me

You entered the door without a hello

Steal each and a little part inside 

Without ask for the permission

Without even ask for forgiveness

I’ve never opened up to anyone before

Before you entered the door,

I was just alone in the empty room

With a empty heart, with a empty soul

I am nothing

But there was something different about you now

I find out before you came into my life

You gave me something so special

You gave me something so brilliant

You’ve added something in my heart

You’ve remove all of the empty part

Filled it with a pure love

That come from the pure heart

Your love have taught me something

I use to think love was just a curse

But when you come into my life

Things have changed just in a blink of an eye

Thanks for coming in this life

You’ve bring a thousand of star

You’ve bring a thousand of rainbow

You’ve bring the joy along the way

You complete me in everyday

By Aini Azhar

Empty

Another night where I felt empty, 

Empty like a box without a thing

Another night of being down,

Down like an idiot

Tears rolled down my cheek

Looked the picture with a broken glass

Favorite songs playing as the background

Reminding me a little part of you

This is how it always ends in the night

Crying my heart out inside the empty room

I never wanted to be caught in this part

But now, it happened between me and you

 

By Aini Azhar

Broken Friendship

Suddenly,

I dream of our days together

The things that we used to do everyday

Our laughed, our smile and our joke

I thought it would last forever

I thought there’s no end in this friendship

But it was all broken

there goes my happily ever after

All my hopes fail

Once I thought I could be happy

At least only a little

But I can’t

The scar is so big now

I keep telling myself, ‘ it’s okay ‘

Well, I keep telling me lies

I feel like I’m gonna sue myself

For hurting each and every part in my heart

To my fairytales,

Take care of yourself

Remember all of the things when we’re still together

Even though now we no longer together

Only memories remain us four

Until the day we meet again

By Aini Azhar